I stared at the immense night sky, aware of the intimacy of that vastness–the moon is not up tonight, so I can see the Pleiades. It is so clear that there is no distance between here and there. The concept of here and there is useful–and necessary in everyday life–but it is only a relative truth. I leaned my head back and rested it against the edge of the tub–the billions and billions of stars (as Carl Sagan used to say)–no distance at all. They are as completely intimate as the blood pulsing through the veins of my neck. In my direct experience this is true, and it is so funny and sweet to watch what the mind does–awe, overwhelm, and denial–of what is obvious:
Any perception occurs here, nearer-than-near. Any sensation occurs here, closer-than-close. Any thought or feeling occurs here, right here in what is undeniable and always known–the right here that no words can ever accurately express–but is dependably present–and not personal. But take note: “not personal” is often misunderstood. It is not disengagement, it is full engagement, complete unity, true intimacy. And “always” is not correct either, because that suggests time–and moments in time, like objects or thoughts or feelings, come and go. It is more accurate to say that right here is ever-present. Right here is so obvious, so ever-present, that I overlooked it for over sixty years.
© Amrita Skye Blaine, 2012
thank you to NASA for the beautiful Pleiades image