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dust and divinity

dust and divinity

note to self

I am both
dust and divinity
made of exploding stars
and light, bright
consciousness
paradox at best

I’m shaped to
live this earthly
mucky messy life—
given a circumstance
not of my choosing
taken who knows when

divinity births dust
forges a form
breathes life
planets and star clusters
amoebas and bacteria
centipedes and spiders
maples and passionflowers
hawks and songbirds
four-leggeds and us

we live in form awhile
taste blessings
bear grief
smell jasmine
and kiss soft lips
all holy
all part of that mire

remember, dear one—
muck nourishes lotuses

thank you to Rebecca Evert for two prompts that birthed this poem

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don’t go to battle with reality

don’t go to battle with reality

note to self

oh, sweetheart—just don’t!
don’t go to battle with
what is, a war
you cannot win
whatever has ensued
is already here
resistance won’t make
it go away

you can choose your
response—be kind?
helpful? generous, even?

when you’re overwhelmed
watch your buddy
the red squirrel sprint
along the fence
outside your office
no cares,
a speedy-rodent agenda
you’re not privileged to know

smile
breathe
remember
start again

2022 ©Amrita Skye Blaine
disclaimer: I’m writing a poem a day. These are drafts—they may never turn into anything more or they might flower.

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memory’s wavering echo*

memory’s wavering echo*

note to self

now is the eternal when—
nod to memory’s wavering
echo echo echo
it merits quiet notice

what happened then
is not now
set it down with care
here is what is happening

rejoin the present
(you cannot leave it anyway)
memories occur now
back then doesn’t exist
not any more

oh yes, that happened
and cannot be denied
it flavored who you are
the backstory to now

stand tall
in this moment
rise up open wide
trust if you can
most of all—love

*phrase from Jon Jackson’s second presentation, from Rilke’s 3rd Letter To A Young Poet (Stephen Mitchell’s translation)

2022 ©Amrita Skye Blaine
disclaimer: I’m writing a poem a day. These are drafts—they may never turn into anything more or they might flower.

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wonder

wonder

note to self

wonder thrives here
its comfortable home
inward, noticing
the movement
of consciousness

wonder in the midst of
the ten thousand things
is tougher these days
if I pay close attention,
even there I find
small blazes of kindness

fan those! bring
forbearance, goodwill
courtesy, too
shimmer with love
everyone suffers

then dive back inside
rest in the big field
attend fear, the feeling itself
it actually won’t eat you
can resistance soften?
who notices?
bring wonder to that

disclaimer: I’m writing a poem a day. These are drafts—they may never turn into anything more or they might flower.
I write “notes to self” to jolt myself awake. Simple reminders, again and again.

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the field is the only reality

the field is the only reality*

note to self

the big field lies prior
prior to our galaxy
prior to time and space
not a thing
but oh so real

primary
immediate
eternal
infinite
open
transparent
lucid
awake

you can rest in the big field
(the it that isn’t an it)
supported and sustained
yet admire wild paradox
and apparent multitudes

*—Albert Einstein

2022 ©Amrita Skye Blaine
disclaimer: I’m writing a poem a day. These are drafts—they may never turn into anything more than a clumsy attempt or they might flower.

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abidance

abidance
note to self

remain with—
dwell in—
endure—
hold steadfast—
life exacts all four

remain with
yourself
at all times
feel everything
that needs to be felt

dwell in
pure consciousness
rest there
notice and open
to what is

endure
what life tosses
your way
hurt and joy
often both at once

hold steadfast
there is no other
way to survive
planet earth
love one another

2022 ©Amrita Skye Blaine

disclaimer: I’m writing a poem a day. These are drafts—they may never turn into anything more, or they might flower. Some are clumsy; forgive me.

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the deep cut

the deep cut
note to self

when life cuts deep
not smooth
but a serrated slice
to the bone

breathe in
breathe deep
feel it all
it’s for you

can you?
can you sit on
the hot seat?
that’s the work

as much as you would
like it to be different
this,
this is how it is

2022 ©Amrita Skye Blaine

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paradox

paradoxParadox: that’s what we’ve got. It’s not something unique that shows up on occasion, it’s the whole, wild, everyday display.

My relative offers deep insight into his friend’s abuse of his body, then drinks himself into a stupor, displaying no understanding of self-care.

The Texas floods sweep away this family, but not that one. The tornado slices through an Oklahoma town—half of it is pulverized, the other half remains untouched.

A terrorist group, in the name of their God, brutalizes children and sledge-hammers ancient sacred sites, while monks chant, meditate, and pray for the awakening of all beings.

Many people busy themselves with asking why.

I find all of it without meaning—the apparent good or the apparent bad. It’s just the phantasmagorical, endless, erupting Now.
The terrible, magnificent Now.

© Amrita Skye Blaine, 2015

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the invitation

Microsoft Word - Document2The invitation is to look, right now. Do not believe what anyone has told you; do not believe what you have read.

Everything depends on your dropping your beliefs about how the world is; you can always pick those beliefs up again, and looking at the heart of your own direct experience in this moment.

  • Has there ever been a moment in your life when it was not now?
  • Have you noticed that thoughts about the past and thoughts about the future always occur now?
  • Can you find a doer, or does life just get done?
  • Can you find the origin of a thought or a feeling, or do they arise full-blown, all on their own? And then, boom! they’re gone, just as abruptly as they arrived?
  • Do you really have control, or occasionally–do events simply happen to turn out the way you wanted, and then your mind takes ownership?

Love,
Amrita

© Amrita Skye Blaine, 2013

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inquiry, take two

smiling shivaYesterday’s post quickly falls apart under close scrutiny, because in the first half I spoke about the personal, separate “I,” and in the second half, I was referring to the inquiry that brings one to understand there is no personal “I” at all–all there is, is freshly unfolding life.

This is how words continually miss the mark they aim for. And yet, I cannot deny my love affair with them. Words keep me up at night, as I lie in bed honing, mentally wordsmithing, searching for the most subtle,  direct, honest expression I can put forward.

Inquiry is Shiva. It destroys what we believed ourselves to be. What’s left has no ownership–but nothing has been lost. As my friend and teacher Elias Amidon says, “We’re ruined.” Then he can’t help but chuckle.

© Amrita Skye Blaine, 2013
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