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wonder

wonder

note to self

wonder thrives here
its comfortable home
inward, noticing
the movement
of consciousness

wonder in the midst of
the ten thousand things
is tougher these days
if I pay close attention,
even there I find
small blazes of kindness

fan those! bring
forbearance, goodwill
courtesy, too
shimmer with love
everyone suffers

then dive back inside
rest in the big field
attend fear, the feeling itself
it actually won’t eat you
can resistance soften?
who notices?
bring wonder to that

disclaimer: I’m writing a poem a day. These are drafts—they may never turn into anything more or they might flower.
I write “notes to self” to jolt myself awake. Simple reminders, again and again.

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sighing

sighing

note to self

I sigh a lot these days
in the brief moment I allow
to check world news
war
sigh
autocrats
sigh
climate
sigh
drought
sigh
politics
sigh
fire threat
sigh
mass shootings
sigh

sighing to release grief
grief so deep
it almost swamps me
yet lives
a lump deep in my gut
stay with it, girl
this is important
feel it
and sigh
sighing is a prayer

2022 ©Amrita Skye Blaine

disclaimer: I’m writing a poem a day. These are drafts—they may never turn into anything more or they might flower.

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the field is the only reality

the field is the only reality*

note to self

the big field lies prior
prior to our galaxy
prior to time and space
not a thing
but oh so real

primary
immediate
eternal
infinite
open
transparent
lucid
awake

you can rest in the big field
(the it that isn’t an it)
supported and sustained
yet admire wild paradox
and apparent multitudes

*—Albert Einstein

2022 ©Amrita Skye Blaine
disclaimer: I’m writing a poem a day. These are drafts—they may never turn into anything more than a clumsy attempt or they might flower.

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fence lines

fence lines

note to self

tear them down
your fence lines of the heart
snap the planks in half
smack them on your knee
pitch them on the pile

strike a match
set the heap ablaze
fan it hard until it rages high
stand back and watch those

fence lines burn
in the conflagration
your heart is set on fire

with thanks to Rebecca Evert for the title line

2022 ©Amrita Skye Blaine
disclaimer: I’m writing a poem a day. These are drafts—they may never turn into anything more, or they might flower.

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abidance

abidance
note to self

remain with—
dwell in—
endure—
hold steadfast—
life exacts all four

remain with
yourself
at all times
feel everything
that needs to be felt

dwell in
pure consciousness
rest there
notice and open
to what is

endure
what life tosses
your way
hurt and joy
often both at once

hold steadfast
there is no other
way to survive
planet earth
love one another

2022 ©Amrita Skye Blaine

disclaimer: I’m writing a poem a day. These are drafts—they may never turn into anything more, or they might flower. Some are clumsy; forgive me.

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the great unconformity

(yes, it’s a scientific thing)

the great unconformity

a vast internal
abrupt uprising and shift
fourteen years ago
from the outside
all seemed the same
but beliefs fell away
gone not to return

what looked out of
these eyes was
wholly impersonal
and not in time
experience ended
fragrance remains

continually
reoriented
and reorienting
paradox
lived and breathed
wonder thrives

a time gap in
cliff formations
almost a billion years
missing
what happened back then?
are my continents merging?

2022 ©Amrita Skye Blaine

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no better work

when the weight
of Being
feels
too heavy

drop
into the well
listen
absorb
abide

savor and
accept
the hard bits
discovered

in the abyss
of yourself
befriend and
cherish the good

weep if you can

© Amrita Skye Blaine 2022

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Paradox

Paradox

We’re made local for a time
each of us a point of view—
on this sphere
of billions
and growing

No number’s large enough
to count all manifest things
A cosmos full
of jewels in Indra’s net
opal garnet tourmaline
Each reflecting the whole

Caught by panic
when I forget
I feel diminished
on this fevered slab of stardust
we call earth

then remind myself—
being local
feels intimate
but it’s not personal
Life is birthing itself
right out of itself
again again and again

 

© Amrita Skye Blaine, 2020

 

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checking the news

Here’s a form of perseverating–I can’t stop the urge to check the news for fire and air quality updates. Even during retreat meetings I’m aware of the pull, which I resist. My phone is turned off during our gatherings.

Of course, when I do check at meal times, it’s frustrating because there is no new news, only rehashing what we already know, although air quality shifts rapidly when wind direction changes.

My job: remain centered here and now, notice when the mind wants to leap into a nonexistent future. There’s no way to know, and “what might happen” isn’t a healthy place for me to spend time.

I’m grateful to be with 170 like-hearted souls, exploring the margins of human understanding and noticing our direct experience.

 

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the implications

When pointing out is kind, patient–and skillful–and, if the student* is mature, understanding one’s true nature can be readily seen. Many people think this is the “goal,” the end of story. That’s a mistaken belief.

As Rupert says, upon seeing our true nature, we begin living the implications of this understanding—an unending revelation. For some people this is a gentle, gradual process, for others, a hellava’ ride.

There is no “I’ve arrived” or “I’m done.” The tap root of the “i” has been severed; the breakdown of old patterns and tendencies unfolds in its own (put favorite expletive here) good time. This unraveling cannot be hurried, but it can be attended to. Willingness helps, resistance does not. The process deserves respect and certainly demands courage.

*I have never heard Rupert refer to retreatants as “students.” He calls us friends.

© Amrita Skye Blaine, 2017
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