from where we look

two moonsWhen I was a young child, I was taught to believe that my consciousness was limited and was “inside” my head–it was specific, and it was mine. When my neighbor, Barby, and I lay outside on the grass on a humid summer evening looking at the full moon, we were two consciousnesses–hers and mine–staring up at one moon. Of course there could only be one moon!–a physical object, I was told, made of dense matter, rotating at a far distance around our planet earth. Two people, two individual awarenesses, one moon.

I did not question this apparent reality for six decades. In fact, I was so inculcated with this belief–as is our culture–that it didn’t even dawn on me that it could be questioned. It remained fact.

Until it was seen as fiction.

When this crazy life of ups and downs, loves and hates, successes and failures palled, when the shine wore off–even the special shine from my spiritual path of almost forty years–I was pointed toward questioning everything, and specifically, everything about myself that I believed to be true. In the Fall of 2008, my whole belief system fell away, never to be replaced. Since August, 2009, searching outside of myself ended; noticing–the natural state of awareness–moved into the foreground. I have been examining my direct experience very closely ever since, and this has blown apart anything and everything that I thought to be true. It has been at times terrifying, disconcerting, a giant relief, and more recently, simply what is.

I have experienced that all I know of the world is my awareness of it. Remove tasting, smelling, hearing, seeing, touching, sensing and perceiving, and the world, as we think we know it, no longer exists–although “awaring” remains: knowing that I am, and that I am aware.

Now when I stand outside with my husband and stare at the moon, there is one eternal consciousness, and two apparent moons occurring within it–each seen through a unique and very temporary body-mind.

From where we looks makes all the difference.

© Amrita Skye Blaine, 2012
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3 responses to “from where we look

  1. Justine Toms

    Thanks Amrita, and at this time of collective grieving for those who died in Newtown, we can truly feel our oneness.

  2. Beautiful post dear Amrita, thank you.

  3. How strong is the idea of one thing, and one awareness of it- the right way to be aware, which we share, of course, being Normal as we all are- the right perception, the right level of interest, the right responses.

    I am finding the loss of that idea very painful, and I dare to hope that the awareness without it will be more beautiful, and that the shedding of the idea is worthwhile. And- a Paradox!- I am delighted that I can share with you this uniqueness. Different facets make the perception more beautiful.

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