forty-one years ago

Forty-one years ago, I penned this card on a hot, sun-filled September afternoon somewhere in Connecticut. I was in the middle of my first and only acid trip, and spent most of the afternoon loose in a vegetable garden, eating tomatoes and other veggies straight from the vine, no hands involved. In this moment I can taste the scents rising from those warm plants! But then, feeling pensive, I sat down with my journal. I often felt that I was not understood–that I didn’t fit into the culture I was raised in–and the weight of that was obvious to me this particular afternoon.

I’m left-handed, and discovered that afternoon that handwriting, for me, always felt like pushing, whereas for right-handed people, it is a pulling motion. So to feel that ease, I wrote backwards for the length of this card, so I too could pull my words like the majority of people. Another way that I could fit in. I remember the sensation now, all these decades later–the ease of it. Simply delicious.

But even more curious, considering my sense of life today, is what I wrote on the card:

Alone is all one. In truth, there is no separation–even when there appears to be.

No wonder I didn’t feel as though I fit into the society I grew up in! There was no one that I could talk to about this knowing. It was many decades before I found like-hearted souls who also know. Some of you are reading this. You know who you are. I bless each of you every day.

© Amrita Skye Blaine

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3 responses to “forty-one years ago

  1. I enjoyed this story.

    You knew. Always.

  2. Amrita:
    Same here.
    Without the acid.
    Or the left-handedness.
    Deep bow.
    Big smile.
    Alone no more.
    d

  3. ALese

    Really enjoyed this one. We sometimes seem to come full circle.

    xo, alese

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