When a teacher described awakening as “disinterested,” it disturbed me–it sounded flat, or uninvolved. Unappealing. And I’ve come to see, even though there is truth in it, that it’s also a bit misleading.
It depends from where we look: disinterested only has meaning from the point of view of the separate self. We, as the opinionated separate self, parse experience into pleasant and disagreeable, lively and boring, attractive and ugly–or some intermediate variation along the way. We believe that life without all the beautiful shades would seem uninteresting.
Presence doesn’t ever leave oneness to divide experience into the body, mind, and world; it stays at home. It is disinterested in division. It-that-isn’t-an-it only knows itself–it simply allows, welcomes all equally as itself. Awareness is equally open to everything. Everything! It is prior to parsing–not prior in the realm of time–presence eternally allows. It’s a verb: allowing, experiencing.
© Skye Blaine, 2011